:-( I wish tyler wasn’t working tomorrow cause I just wanna cuddle and watch movies and talk about my day. I need to finish talking to Chris and Ryan too l0l. I just need sleep after today, it was crazy.
That is all….I just need to cuddle….
sleeps
He left his iPod in his girlfriends car, the lovely monica l0l aka my cupcake. So when we found it I looked at some of his music and I was like mine l0l, I love having new music…LOVE IT! some of it I don’t really like but theres a lot of it that I’m just like 0_0……YAYYY!!! l0l he has a lot of stuff I’ve never heard before and I love it! l0l It makes me happy when I find new music I love ^-^ although now I have almost 9000 songs in my itunes X_x this makes for a slow itunes on my computer l0l.
9000!!!!!!! WHAT THE WORLD!
Is is sad that this makes me this happy??
My hair ideas, I wanna know what yall like, these are just my favs l0l
What do you like?
(Source: hannahvickers, via brokenfragilethings)
thats what’s making me smile right now. Not much longer till I crash but till then, since someone isn’t messaging me back on facebook l0l I’ll keep my mind busy.
How messed up I think I am. I know other people don’t see it but I sure do. And even if I tried to tell people I don’t think they would understand. Maybe it is all in my head but maybe It’s the truth, maybe I am messed up. I think the only person that might understand is Jesse, I know that he has felt the same way I do right now. I think Will might understand, but Jesse would DEFINITELY understand. Part of why I’ve been feeling so stressed and annoyed is Will, he gets mad over stupid things, and I know I get mad over things most girls wouldn’t but I’m not most girls. There are some things that he thinks I’m over that I’m totally not, and that I’ll most likely bring up at some time that I shouldn’t but whatever. I don’t know what to do, there is a lot I have to think about that might happen after college, I might have a chance to move to LA but It’s a lot to think about if it really happens. I also have a lot of stuff to pray about, like the possibility of moving somewhere after college, some of my relationships, school, a job after college, this summer, and a lot more stuff. I’m gonna go read and sleep, so yea…good night my little stalkers.
Eric!!! So he asked me to write something for his about meeeee and I said I would. Oh gosh…where do I start about Eric? He will randomly say stuff like “HOLY SHARK BANDANAS!” and if you tell him to get off the gound only using his face…HE WILL TRY! He’s such a funny guy, he can make anyone laugh. And althought he is very random and funny he’s always there when you need to talk or vent about anything. He’s one of those awesome people who knows that he can be who he is and he doesn’t care what you think. He has AMAZING talent and writes amazing raps. He is one of the most amazing friends I could ever have, cause I know that If I need a laugh I can talk to him, if I’m in a random mood I can talk to him, and if I need to have a real talk and vent about something I can talk to him. And I never have to worry about him talking about me behind my back because he’s too cool to do that to his friends. Pretty much, in a nut shell, Eric is A FREAKING AWESOME FRIEND!! and if you don’t think so then you just don’t know Eric! ~Meredith~
Thank you, I know you won’t read this because you don’t know about my blog but thank you so much, not many people from second talk to me anymore, and you’ve been talking to me all day. You are such a cool guy, and yes it’s 3 in the morning and we should both be asleep but nope, we’re talking about movies and how nothing is on tv l0l. I’m gonna miss you alot when I go to college, but you better keep in touch with me, cause I know I’ll try to keep in touch with you. Thank you for staying my friend.
I think the butterflies you still get from him are trying to eat you alive. They are the only think thats keeping you hanging on to him, they won’t let you fall out of love. You have to let them fly away.My friend to me.
Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently
Me and my friend from graduation :) taken less then a month ago
It started out great, good talks, amazing first date, starteding going out, went to church together, always went to eat together. He tought me how to spray paint, we always laughed and had an amazing time together, my parents liked him, and I thought his mom and sister liked me, but guess not. But I didn’t let the fact that he told me that his sister said she hated me get to me, I got over it, but he couldn’t let it go. We went out for 4 months before he said God told him it was time for us to take a break, turns out it was his idea. I know that we were doing stuff we shouldn’t have been, but we were getting better about it. then about a month and a half later, after he lied to me about going to met up with some girl who had told him that we we’re gonna break up and that she would always love him and that him and her were gonna get together, we had a pretty big blow up, me talking abotu how he pretty much lied to me, him talking about how he didn’t think he could go out with someone who didn’t trust him (and I did trust him, before he lied to me) and how he couldn’t go out with someone who didn’t get along with his mom and sister (who I hadn’t been given a chance to get to know so I still felt awkward around them) then, 3 days before my senior prom, broke up with me, saying God told him to (not sure if I believe that reason but I wasn’t going to ask) then after I asked if we could wait till after prom, and him saying no he could only go to prom with me as my friend, he went around saying oh yea we’re dating, this is my girlfriend, yea I’m her date. And I thought things would be cool, thought we could be friends like he said, thought we would be “Bezzy’s” for ever like he said, but then one day he just stops talking to me, stops texting me, and when he see’s me just looks at me like he hates me, when he see’s my paster (who was also his paster) say’s nothing to him, acts like he doesn’t know him. And I don’t know him anymore, he’s nothing like the guy I met back in august, and nothing like the guy I started talking to in october, nothing like the guy I started dating in november, nothing like the guy I fell in love with in december, nothing like the guy who broke up with me in april. And all the time, my best friend was right about everything, right about the fact that I was going to get hurt, right about the fact that I would get my heart broken. He was right, not my best friend, my ex, that I can do better then him, because if this is the real him I never wanna be with a guy like him, I don’t even wanna be friends with a guy like him, I still pray for him and part of me still loves him and hopes that this isn’t him. I just hope that I find that guy who doesn’t go from prince charming to stranger for once, I think I know who it is but he just won’t give me a chance. I hope and pray that my prince charming comes to save me soon.
